Recently

Lots of stuff happening recently.

Firstly Let me explain wad sin i just committed

- Within a span of 2 weeks, I have officially consumed fast food 3 times. And All-time record of not eating ff for 1+ years has been smashed into pieces =(

Anw i've been really busy lately, outings and all. No time to study, No time to read. No time to do the things parents would wish their children could do. Except a hell lot of houseworks.

Going to cameron on sunday =)
Ben

LKY's B-day

Happy Birthday Kai Yang!

Just bear 1 more year and you'll be all set to go-go

But thanks for everything man. You've been a really great dude.
Especially in boarding. haha

Ben =)

Boarding/EOYs/Holidays

Has been a Really long long time since I have posted.

Anyway here are the updates:

Boarding. TOTALLY AWESOME.
I actually developed an emotional bond with it. As in like when I left it, I felt kinda of sad and reluctant. I think I changed a bit in boarding. It broadened my thinking and my social circle of course. i think it kinda made me more open and less reserved and quiet. Yeah, and i thoroughly enjoyed it. Though I never actually hit the goals that I set before boarding (like learning how to play dota and CS). Cos there was practically No TIME. I mean, there's row call and prep. Plus EOYs...

EOYs. How to put it. It was neither good or bad. In the middle line. But it comes with a really disapointing ending

Chem: 79
Physic: 69
Math: 79

Damn. My GPA is now 3.49. If everytime gets pulled up. It'll be 3.6!!!!!!!!

And theres the holidays, which i have no idea how im going to spend it. Other than going out and training and No studying, I have to find somehting to achieve. Something I can look forward too.
Haha, I remember in sec 1. I had this craze about doing backflips and splits (as in the two-legged spread out horizontal position), not that I actually managed to do them, but I had something to do everyday. When im bored especially.

I'm beginning to hate my com, it's like an anti-social creature trying to kill my life.

The First Lap

The first lap of exams.

Unlike race, which i would burst forth to head to the front.
This time i have to adopt a different strategy.

Slow and Steady wins the race.

Hopefully.

Slack

Right now. Today I'm just gonna max out my slacking time.

Just random combing facebook and completing the lame quizzes. Which are quite funny sometimes. GO do it. =)

EOYS Madness

Oh My Gosh.

I think my degree has risen YET again. Eoys are to be blamed once again and forever will be.
Just finished my geog revision and my eyes are tired and burning. Gotta sleep now.
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Oh one more thing.
Haha this just happened:

My Sis: "OH MY GOSH! WAD!"
Me (thinking): "Wad thing?"
My Sis: "Ah, I found treasure!!"
Me: Walking over to see wad had happened

I thought that it was going to be something cool and funky. Like something out of the blue, like a necklace or diamond ring that sort. Maybe even an extra phone that I can use (I'm phoneless right now), or maybe a long lost picture of her best friend or smth. Well, it has got to be soemthing treasure-ry

Turn out she was rejoicing over a stack of bio notes.

She found it in her cupboard. And she was so happy, she just became high and started telling my other sis about her breakthrough discovery.
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This is how exams have mutilated the wires in our brain.
Even a stack of papers can be just the key for you to live on.

2 Heads. 1 Body

It's 2 heads 1 body. Morrison and XC

Dun ask, I wonder how i will managed too.
But come to think of it, it is going to force me out of my comfort zone. I mean I have nvr actually taken on such huge responsibility before. The highest position I reached was probably in ACS, which was screwed up because the badminton team barely even listened to me. We simply didn't need a captain then, things were so easy to control. P3 - p5, everyone is still immature and peeing in their pants, I just needed to "Hu Jia Hu Wei" and stand infront of my coach and everyone just shut's up. haha

I'm not frightened. In fact it's quite exciting just to think about it. Discussing with the exco, coming up with screwed up designs, trying to ra-ra the house into doing stuff(which i'm worst at) and stressing out from financial accountings . It would be fun, but tough. And I'll just handle it when they come along.

Then there's cross.

Everyone is saying that next year's batch of crossers is gonna be the most boring year. Screw that. We are gonna (try) to do well, and add a whole lot of fun and excitement to our days. Do you realise that what we achieve doesn't matter to us but only to slim (that's all he talks to us about anw)? What counts are those days where we laugh and engage in a sequel of no-brainers and nonsensical actions as a team, and of course train, suffer and get inspired as a team too. It's srsly not our job to scold, judge or discipline the team, but to be always there when they need us.

But sadly it would be me....and me alone. Cheng Lu and Nat are the last person that you can associate "fun" with. They're serious people who look at life like it is a piece of detention slip. But nvm, he will change. And although I told him that a thousand times over (that he will start trying to cool and wear all those ankle socks kind of stuff), I tell you one day...just one day..you will see. He's just waiting for that day to come.

Morrison & XC
Bring it on Baby =)

gerald's huge ass ego

wad the shit. Gerald has this gigantic ego as big as his moobs.

Let me show u our convo:
ben leong/ www.scribbling-on-my-book.blogspot.com says:
probably

GERALD SIM says:
but i can swim man

ben leong/ www.scribbling-on-my-book.blogspot.com says:
i dunno

GERALD SIM says:
my gpa not too bad also

GERALD SIM says:
i can swim, can study, can joke damn nice, look not too bad
perfect bf mah

GERALD SIM says:
but i really make quite a good bf right

ben leong/ www.scribbling-on-my-book.blogspot.com says:
wah lao
are trying to use me to boost ur gigantic ego?
kenasai
OK LAH
U DAMN HANDSOME AND CUTE LAH
aiyoh

GERALD SIM says:
thank you thank you
eh but i really quite good wad

ben leong/ www.scribbling-on-my-book.blogspot.com says:
im going to blog about u
and ur ego

GERALD SIM says:
good
say gerald sim
the best joker of all tiems
times
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WTH

Notes

September holidays are all about making notes notes and more notes.

I am just 3/4 done with compiling my bio notes and guess what. Total of 42 pages! Wad the shit. And i'm just finished external respiration. I still have celluar R and transport in man...It really feel very sian, but i've no choice. It's just push on or die. Just like my RE

Anw semifinals presentation is just next week. Feeling freaking frightened. and nervous. Because this time it will be much much more rigorous and stringent.

Haha CL gave me the best combo for our judges: Rosie Smith, Aruna Johnson and Eric Koh.
We get this, we seriously own. IF WE REALLY REALLY GET IN, whoa

EOYs

EOYs are coming. Damn.

Today is the last slacking day before it's time to get into some hardcore mugging. As much as I hate it, I really want that 3.7. Term 3 is the 1st time i got 3.65!

I want more, and I like it better too
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Anw im actually missing boarding. I love home, but yet, I enjoy staying in boarding too. As in it's much more relaxed, less fast paced of course.

Because at home when the clock hits 11, I feel like I can't do anymore homework and it's time for bed. But at boarding, when the clock hits twelve, it's work time...or play time. Anyway Hang out with the other scholars is quite a great way to kill time, you can learn alot.

U know we often tease the indian accent right. Yeah, they tease ours too. And they are really good at teasing because they're way of talking makes you utterly dumbfounded. But i can say their english is really quite perfect.

For example, they keep saying we don't pronounce to last letter of the words. Ok, at first i didn't believe them. Let say the word "tea" , JUST THAT WORD and they get the final say. They say we singaporeans pronounce it is "thee". And they exaggerated it, it really cracks u up. Because when they say it as "thee", they really do sound like normal singaporeans. HAHA That's why I decided to mix around with them and improve my standard i little. =)

SO MANY THINGS TO SAY

First things first,

RLP! Awesome. Awesomer. Awesomest

Really, people who want to be future leaders, you will simply love RLP. The system is efficient and the services and facilities are very well rounded. Being in boarding is really a whole new experience, away from family and civilisation, surviving by yourself.

Anyway from the start of boarding till now, it's like i have never slept before 11 before. Because, there's just so much stuff to do: Laundry, Prep, Row Call, Eating, Screwing around with friends, Studying. Resulting in yesterday's lack of sleep, because I forget to collect my laundry fromthe dryer. And till now, I haven't even ironed any of my clothes yet, so wth all my shirts are damn creased and they look really ugly. But who cares, as long as I have clothes to wear.

And boarding food is really quite delicious, I dun understand why they all make it sound so bad. in fact I look forward to eating in the dining hall. I Love their drinks, its always so damn refreshing. My roommate (behind me now), is super nice and friendly.He's called yao zhecheng and he is really an ultimate mugger. Srsly, even he's clothes shelf has tons of books!! Gosh, but he's damn smart, hoefully with him, I can improve my chinese. =)
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End of RES-L

We really had a stupendous finale. Everyone was so happy, even the some of the kids who were kinda emo, smiled miraculously. Haha maybe it's because we're leaing already. Anyway, we gave them certificates and medals, and this small things made them so content and so glad. This past 15 weeks has really been gruelling and draining. But we managed to pull through and completed it fair and square =) Fruthermore, Mrs Lim said we got into semi-finals so we have to work damn hard till that day comes. Hopefully we can be ready by then =)

It's almost like, we started this RE-SL feeling so dejected and we even thought of giving up, to think we actually managed to finish it and handle so well =) But I really have to show my appreciation to my RE group, Mrs Lim and Ms Yang. Our re roup is a bunch of retards, srsly, but with a lot of substance.
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"Don't follow where the path may lead, but go where there is no path, and leave a trail" -Read from serangoon MRT station

Ben =)

AYC and Other stuff

Ay Why See. Totally awesomeness

It was a super high energy convention, its like everyday the stuff makes you feel damn highly energetic and spirited. Keeps me alive haha. Anyway I learnt alot, asean stuff and other schools students. It's like I couldn't understand half of wad they were saying and yeah I was sleeping through most of the lectures. So was everyone! Deon was the worst, his sleeping position was so distinct, people from the other side of NUS high audi were laughing at him.

And yeah accompanied by all those random stuff and talking. Yeah and so many things happened so quickly..but it was fun. A really great experience. Got to know many people and explored into a different perspective altogether. I mean we are like DELEGATES. Whoa it's like we have the power to change, to make a whole new difference.

But haha I was quite apathetic towards everything. As in, I didn't know why everyone was copying notes about the lectures when it was totally redundant and it was all in the booklet alr. I was either sleeping or playing tap-tap on deon's phone. On the last day, we were like making this list of english-chinese translation of certain vulgarities. Then we gave it to the vietnamese people who began to use it so often and it was freaking hilarious.

Some photos that were grab from fb:

So Far

Oh My Gosh. Math CCT is Tmr and I have totally no idea on the concepts of Geom Proofs.
Its is srsly very screwed up, wht the hell do they want us to identify similar shapes and compare the relation between 2 stupid lines. Mid Pt thereom, intersect thrm...Huh?

Anyway, somehow now the sec 4s are over to the other side. Feeling in cross has been different, solely because now we are in charge. Nataniels is like on a poning streak (cos of national science challenge), so it's just cheng lu and me. Well, lucky cheng lu is here, he has a flair for administrative things. If not for him, our re report would have nvr been started. Right, he's also a total authoritarian, when he wants, he demands, with a fierce voice. Very commanding. Which is good of course. Because he gets things done quickly, but ppl kan ta "bu shuang".

Right and i have a bio test on thursday and chem oba on....when? I haven't touched both anyway, so i know im pretty screwed.

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Dad brought sis and I to suntec to have a look at america's top universities exhibitions. Well, it was a god idea cos my sis only has 1 more year before she starts a college education. She's really keen to go US i think. Anw we saw some of the really pretigious unis like Harvard, Princeton, USC, Boston, King's College. Very Broad range to select from. She zeroed down on hers, I just randomly walked around exploring the booths. Almost all of them offer medicne.

The American's system and British ones are different. To study medicine in america, i need at least 9 years. With specialisation course I think =P. Wheareas for S'pore, I need at least 6 years. But dad said that to ultimately i need to give up at least 10 years to complete my uni-studies. But hopefully i can go overseas, then i will be more exposed to different stuff.

So I will decide when the time comes. hahaha
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Ok I'm gonna sleep soon.

Ben =)

One of Life's Really Tough Decision

Ok. It's a really really tough decision to make. Today the sec 4s finally crossed over to RJC for training, which is really sad cos we won't see them for trg anymore =(. It also means that we are the most senior now, and we will carry the responsiblity of the team.

But it also got me thinking, real hard about one thing. Should I continue in JC or not?

One side says that well, to put it in honest terms, since i'm reasonably good at running i should continue. I shouldn't make all of this 4 years of traininggo to waste. Furthermore, everyone has high expectations of me and I can't disappoint them.

On the other side, I have the feeling like "I'm bored of running" and I dun think I will be interested to run next time. I wanna try something new, like learn a new sport and excel in it.

But today, I decided not to let go of this issue, I gonna make a wise choice.

Its more of a Passion vs Talent thing. But thinking deeper into this maze, I realised that the passion is there but something is hindering it from igniting. I think it's because I'm afraid. Fear. I afraid of doing long runs, intervals, But i like easy runs =).

Because I feel that i am pressured to win in all my competitions, and i'm also quite alone. Think of it, unless cheng lu really improves like crazy, I feel as if I have to be the saviour of the team's position. And if i fail, then omg. No back-up. And during the intervals, there won't be someone to pace and no one to follow during long runs. But yet pressure is important to push people further. What a stupid contradiction.

Running is fun, but it ain't fun without a partner to strive together.

Therefore, I consulted my father. Like everyone else, he encouraged me to continue. But he stated that the schools needs a representative to participate in competitions, and if I don't do it no one else would.

"Everyone loses interest in a sport somehow, it's a very normal thing, but it's the perseverance thats keeps us going" - said by Dad. Well, it did change my mindset in someway.

Right, I also think im thinking far to negatively about cross country. Its like now I just think X-C is like

Long Runs = Damn Sian and have to wake up damn early in the morning,

Intervals = Makes me die.

But there again, if so many people in RJ can continue and yet enjoy it, I dun think that there is a reason why I can't. Maybe it's not that bad, it's just the competitions that makes you wanna shiver. But all sports face strong competition, there's no way to hide from it.

Oh yah, I guess if i just stop at Secondary school is like Ban Tu Er Fei. if I give up cross, it will be damn sad. Because I already gave up Teakwondo, Wushu and im like damn lazy to even go for my Wushu trainings nowadays (I have't gone for 5 months =P). So if I stop its like, all my acheivements is cut short in Sec Sch.

I am gonna make sure I guaduated from JC feeling satisfied, that I completed a long hard race. I started this race, i've gotta finish it.

So am I gonna quit or not?

Well, Let's just say I will keep my options open, I dun wanna decide to early, although I know that the arguements is like obviously tipping on the "go for it"side. But for now I will just concentrate on B div nats. But I'm be inclining towards continuing though.

BUT I WANT TO HAVE A PARTNER TO RUN WITH IN JC. Someone who is like same or better than me so I can work with him and he can work with me. Mutual thing. Then we can improve together, yeah you know that kind of logic.

I'll decide next year, just setting my boundaries out right. When I come to the bridge, then I will cross it. So dun get ur hopes to high.

Ben

Oh right. Lets find a quote that fits this:

" You can't go through life quitting everything. If you're going to achieve anything, you've got to stick with something." ~From the television show Family Matters

Half Blood Prince

I watched this movie 2 times on 2 consective days. Wad the hell?

Anw back to the movie. Overall I think it's quite good. But there was less action and more of the emotional stuff.

Yeah hermione is really pretty. Especially when she cried because ron was snogging the disgusting lavender, that was quite cute. Ron has no taste, blur sotong

Ginny is quite pretty also lah, quite hot. Tall, slim and got nice face, I dunno why people thinks she's ugly. No eyes, she fits in well with harry. She's taller than harry btw.

Everyone seems to have matured so much already, comparing to the first time they acted in the philosopher stone. Draco looks so adult-ish, with the angular face and everything. Harry looks just about the same.

But one thing for sure,

DUMBLEDORE WAS DAMN COOL. Srsly especially when he was spinnning this huge tornado of fire in the air, killing all the inferi. You can't do anything but watch him being pro. Really wise too, like a father to harry. But he died in the end, which was really sad but it was necessary (the last book explains everything).

=)

Quotes Craze

Reading quotes can actually make you feel MUCH MUCH better, if you are nervous/disappointed/angry/sad so on and so forth.

Take a look at this really cool quotes:

A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out. ~Grace Pulpit

Laughter is an orgasm triggered by the intercourse of sense and nonsense. ~Author Unknown

It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice. ~Author Unknown

The greatest oak was once a little nut who held its ground. ~Author Unknown

Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did. ~Newt Gingrich

Don't be discouraged. It's often the last key in the bunch that opens the lock. ~Author Unknown

A door opens to me. I go in and am faced with a hundred closed doors. ~Antonio Porchia

Courage is being afraid but going on anyhow. ~Dan Rather
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Go search for more!! Helps you through life...

Not good

Wah damn reluctant to go to school...lessons are boring

At least school finishes at 1.30 and plus no training, so can go home earlier to slack. But I got a persistent sore throat! No lah not H1N1 but my throat is itchy and painful, haha my tuition teacher gave me this honey liquid, damn bitter. No choice liang yao ku kou, only bitter medicine produce good results, those sweet cough syrups no point taking.

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On a brighter side, I'm a lucky guy. As in really damn damn lucky

Went for the republic poly run on sunday, some 5km charity run which people just sign up to win lucky draw prize. =.=

Anw the lucky draw prizes were:

1) Chevolet Spark (Suckified Car), 140 brooks
2) This is the best: 42' LCD tv, $1000 Seng Siong, $800 Sports Link, $750 Brooks Shoe all vouchers
3) About the same as 2nd but a bit less..

No I didn't win the 1/2/3 prizes which is so disappointing. Haha but i won the 10th prize which is satisfying enough lah. $200 sports link, $140 brooks shoe and 100 seng siong. my mum was damn happy cos she no need to spend money for the next 1 week or so..

Plus, got medal and some cash money 100 cheque. Yeah I'm donating it to my RES-L which is really in need of some funding.
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RLP postponed =(
Quite sad yet quite relieved.Cos I havent packed anything yet, no even my books or tidbits.
My mum has been nagging at me for so long, she gave me 2 huge boxes to put my stuff in, I just placed it in the cupboards. RIght now, I can't be bothered.

Anyway I'm boarding with this PRC scholar called Yao Zhe Cheng.Hopefully he's nice, AND CLEAN. If I got a room mate who can't aim his pee properly, my rlp days are doomed. I'm a bit scared of dirty people. Sorry =P

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Haha Guan Lin, Derek and I went for lunch today. We walked around J8 one big round b4 decided to eat at subway. At first they wanted KFC, then we changed to some taiwan mee sua thing, then fishball meepok after that macs finally we went to S-11 but still didn't want to eat there. So we go subway lor. Expensive but healthy especially for sick cat like me. =)

Oh and we plan to watch DRAG ME TO HELL this thursday. hahaha

S-EXciting.

Counting Down to Hell

crap crap crap.
School is gonna start soon. I'm not ready, still clinging on to my holiday...

Then there's the test and assignment once again. And I have to see the math teacher's face again. Gayz mans.

At least there are some stuff to look forward to =)

HOls

Oh shit, I feel damn bloody lazy. Srsly feel like procrastinating. I see my math supp exercise on my table i feel like burning it. ARgh.

Quadratic functions. WTH

Heloiday so far has been damn damn sad. Other than training and working i really have no life. Only went out a couple of times. Oh hahaa at least got clas outing to look forward to =). Hopefuly Gl plan a cross outing, yeah at least got some life.

Shit Lah. I dunno how come, My stationery always goes missing. hahaha really it's like bu zhi bu jue it will suddenly vanish. Been happening since primary school. Then end up keeping wasting unnecessary money buying pen and pencil. Argh.

Anyway I love my new laptop, and specs too =)
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Wei Xuan Just send me a damn cool link:
http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte

Go Watch it. Appreciate your food. Dun Waste It

Some Stuff

Oh long time since i posted.

Well many things have happened, events have passed. Some good, some bad but haha that's life
1) I started playing dota
2) I just bought a new laptop, finally....
3) New specs =) Half-frame
4) There's soccer in training 0.0 Hard to believe right?

Oh haha my life sucks, i haven't done anything super fun this hols.haiz. Its either work or training or some other commitment. There's like practically no time for anytime and for anyone

I love fujitsu. light sleek beautiful

Open House

Oh I think this was the most exciting open house that I have been too.
Partly because I am more familiar with the people around me, approaching random booths isn't really a problem. In fact, it was very fruitful. I managed to talk to at least 2 parents!! haha *feeling proud* =).

Then there was the ultimate gymnastic competition. After two gruelling tries on the spring board, I managed to complete a proper somersault (in the air), with a perfect landing man. Most of the time was spent talking to GL and other good friends. Oh we cam-whored like girls too.

Then GL and I was engaged in a "ARE U GAY" session, where we will randomly ask a guy his sexual preference. Of course, my good friend NAT was pulled into this, and in return I received a rejected smack and he freaking dao-ed me.

Met many new faces. Some really cute ones. Wu lao shi brought a two little kids for the open house. Haha really really adorable...quite shy lah since we were surrounding them. Then I met B-Tan brother. Mr Ryan Tan. He quite plump, and he DOES NOT resemble that retard at all. Srsly!! Their eyes are different, body size different. His brother so handsome, B-tan so ugly. Heard that brandon?? Your brother is 10000000x more good looking then you!!

HAHA then the fun part came. When syamir brought out his lovely ball...oh my gosh I was crazy over it. Everyone wanted to play with it. HAHA mad rush for his ball.

*I know whatcha thinking lah *
Soccer ball lah. haha we played for around 45 mins. S-lim wasn't there to watch, busy with other sort of stufff.

KK bye

Ben

Blogging during geog class

HHAHAAH im blogging in classs

Geog period...in the comlab...Cool mans

Straightening OUT

Ah yess im feeling the stresss. lucky its not the kind of "I have no way-out, no plan or I'm dead" kind of stress. yes i was feeling that way b4, but things straightened out. And yupz, hope it turns out fine.

Many stuff I need to do. For house and for Projects (Majorly Important). Now season is long over, work has taken its priority. Yesss. More relaxed and in control. There's the Social Advocacy, Geog Report Project, S.S Project...and the huge RE-SL sports project. Accompanied with all the test and CCts, no choice, must brace and fight it out.

Anw, got some stuff to look forward too =). There's the nat juniors. *wink wink*. Then there's the interhouse track-field. Must try to get indiv champion again. 1500, 3000,2K Steeple. But morrison quite underdog for this. But hopefully we can get at least a 2nd/3rd. Own Buckley.

Hair day

Dunno why but my hair keeps feeling so itchy after i bathe. Oh shit maybe i have fungus growing in it. haha and these few weeks, my stomach is like bloated with air. I keep FARTING. Sooo if suddenly so smell smth damn pungent...

I'M SORRY.

Ben

I've given up hope

Totally give up.
Not gonna look care about it anymore.
Last hope...

haha and im not telling why (dun worry not scandalous)
*wink wink*

ARGH...

SHit i have so damn many stuff to complain about I dunno where to start

firstly I feel so pissed. No DAMN PISSED. miss by just that stupid bit. That idiotic 1cm . To my 30 points. Anw i think i already felt like I had no confidence in my SBJ. And I jumped 230 for 3 times , but the teacher keep saying "fault". Oh well, wad to do...

Secondly, training just has gotten so much worse. Training on wed has now been changed to MACRITCHIE...ARGHHHH...Training at RI field is so much more convenient!!! I mean its more convenient,

like after school just go down sit down talk abit then go run 40mins and sit down do exercises laugh here laugh there. Easy run at macritchire is freaking NOT an easy run. Pls lah yiyan and GL will push the pace like siao.. how to keep it easy???

Thirdly, I think my res-l is realy really terribly gonna die. We havent even started on the programme yet! yes i know everyone has started and they are like maybe half-way liaozzzz. we got so much admin to do. I emailed the student care centre IC last week. And? she has yet to reply.. argh arghar agrh arggha rgah rar agrha hgra hrv s
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Oh i have made some amazing sturture to my season next year!

From now on, I'm gonna skip at least 3 times a week for at least 30mins. My height cannot go one like this, i must do somthing about it. If i grow taller, things will change. And believe me, DRASTIC changessss

And I shall start by revising my math for the CCT next thursday. yep I have to score and maintain my 4.0!!
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Right...I gonna quite malay. Its boring and i have lost my interest in it.

No 8. I want my 7!!

Huh.....im sure only 1 week of break.

Why slim Why?!?! last year we had at least 2 weeks ++. Oh i guess it's because of the nats junior. It's quite important anyway. hahah hope that got another nice break after Juniors.

Break are nice
Cos breaks are fun
Cos I can relaxed
And do my own stuff

wow. i can write nice poems too =)
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Anw I am quite disappointed with my Napfa result. WASTED!!!

Tell you why. My expectation was >8min. Guess wad my time was?!?!?!??!?

8.00min. ZERO. ZERO. LING. LING.

Screw the 8 mins! I want my lucky 7. The feeling is like if you had gone just slightly slightly faster, the timing would have been much better. Sigh...Now i gotta face my 5 station. One of which (shuttlerun) I have absolutely no confidence in.

Sry but just expressing anger. No offence or putting down is directed to anyone in the world/school or wadeva.
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1st means 1st alright!!!

Yeah baby. 3 times straight in a row. RI has clinched the overall champion in the...

Inter-School Aquathlon Challenge!!!

For the C div relay, Everest(swimmer) & Syamir (runner) achieved 2nd and Joel (runner) with another guy achieved 4th!! Congrats guys!!

For b div, me and daryl cheng....wad was that? wad was that???? YEAH 1st!

HAHA. It's a screwed up race lah, more like a fun race. but the trophies and medals are damn nice. Wait till i tell you about the PRIZES.

A book. With a watch. That cost $115.45!!!! awwwww don't be jealous.

Ben

Track Nationals

Well, it went quite smooth for me i can say. Being in the B-div was a whole new experience. Different and very enriching. I am quite glad with my timings fot this year. Managed to sub 10 for 3000m =).

But I feel that everyone was super sway. Seriously.

First, i think wang kwan injured. His knee or smth. Then his bad "aura" spread to GL. Who pulled his precious hamstring. Had to miss the 800m heats. And that is half the nationals gone. Oh wait before that, my knee oso kena. Dun why, the pain was in the knee, then the ITB and TFL got affected. Suddenly my whole leg engulfed in pain. Running was like hell for me. Didn't manged to train for 1500. and hd little 3000m training =( . Ok lets continue. Then I heard Cal Kor and Syafiq also down with injury. That led to the downfall of our 4 x 400m. In the end, the team consisted of 3 sec3s (CX, FK, JT) and 1 sec 4(seow). Lols. We died. Like crap.

Oh yah, still got Alex yeo. Also down like ankle injury. Yeah he had to skip the whole nationals. So sad. I will be like damn emo if i have to miss my 3000. Cos i wont have any race experience. Haiz...

Sorry people. I can feel the pain too. I don't like it too. (I missed my All comers. Not as bad =P )

Anyway. Track final was quite fun. hahah and as usual the dinner was quite screwed at the first part. First there was this controversy whether the restaurant was halal or not. Despite repeated reminders an assurance, Dong Yee/ Syamir and Gang Still left. Claiming that "they don't trust the place" So yah. left only two sec 2s and rest of B div. Of course the RG people too.

But i can say that they chose quite well. Cos this dinner was different from the rest. It was a spread of BUFFET. And they serve very nice food. Whole variety. Hmm. DELECTABLE AND DELICIOUSSSSSS. hahaha. And of course, the pranks and everything. Seow, HZ, GL and Gang. hahahah screwed up but very nice and friendly bunch of Goondoossss.

Yeah Believe it or not. I was raped. RAPED ALRIGHT. Privacy invaded u know that sort of hardcore rape action. ALL SEOW's IDEA. Let me describe it vividly to you....
Seow drag me to the floor. With hao zhi kind assitance, they held my both limbs. Then Gl and WK came in. Pulled off my shirt. Used a stupid PERMANENT MARKER. And freaking wrote some words on my stomach *cannot say*. HAHAH THEN they colour like precios nipples. wah kao. its still there. and I bathed 3 times. WTH mans.

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Don't learn from me

hahaha I'm torrenting movies. Pls do not learn from me. I know its bad, but its fun plus they're quality are superb. Haha in total i torrented around 40+ . Somehow I download so many but i haven't watched a single one yet. If you want some of the movies, pass me your hardrive, I give you all. R21 also have.

Haiyoh, so disapointed with my dear, cutie-pie everest. He's timing was UNBELIEVABLE. I also don't know how someone like him can achieve such commendable results. Let's start from heats. 12.30!! My gosh.... *State of shock*. Well, like most athletes says, races are very unpredictable. I guess Evee has to learn to control his emotions. Apparently he was so nervous, it affected him instead of giving up adrenaline rush.

Nvm Evee, still got 2 more years. Hopefully, you will medal by sec 4. Wo Dui Ni He Syamir You Xin Xin!! Strive hard and All the way.

Ben =)

3000m finals

YES!!! My important event is finally OVER!!! HAHA i feel so relaxed. But i think of studies i feel damn stressed. I'm like missing out on all my freaking tests. Today i missed chem test. Thursday I gonna miss Math Ta. wth lah. Back to race details.

Distance: 3000m B-boys
Timing: 9.58 min. I smashed my PB WOOHOO!!!
Position: 6th

Indians have a special talent for running. Think about it, all the top international runners are mostly Negroes. They have this factor in them lah. Their legs are like a stick but full of muscle and energy. And Top 5 today were all indians. I'm a quarter. So that makes 5 1/4 =)

Now for the 1500m on thursday.
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Today Dong Yee was damn pissed.

Cos he got fired by mr lim for poning school in the morning to race in the afternoon. Plus he changed into some really fashionable shirt and slippers after in came. Slim not happy, say what "A sportsman must wear shoes and a proper shirt" haha so dong yee forced to change.

Then it all started. Dong yee say he wants to quite cross. Syamir heard it, Syamir now also want to quite. He said Slim give up on everybody already. Only left Jonathan and Everest and Joel. Of course he didn't say to slim lah. But he was damn rebellious. I guess he should grow out of it lah. He was shouting all sorts of vulgarities when we lunched. PUBLIC SOMEMORE.
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Ben

Dad's Half a Century Old

Today is a very special day:

My Dad's 50th birthday!!!

Well, its not really his b-day, next thurs is the real one but we can't celebrate then, so now lor.

Anw I think it was the most well prepared and best b-day my dad has ever had. I mean it doesn't have any really cool things. It was very homly. We prepared a banner! And we have never done that before! So yah, plus we had delectable feast of STEAMBOAT. Just finished eating, I feel like eating somemore. After that, we had LANA CAKES..eaten so many times but just can't get tired of it =). HAHA I made my dad hold a number "50" sign wherever he goes. Cool.

HAPPY 50th Birthday DAD. Age gracefully and happily.
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3000m heats tomorrow.
Just thinking about the starting point makes me nervous..After tomorrow, SO MUCH MORE RELAXED. Sigh..i so lonely again. All by myself having to face the terrors of a race.

Ben

Stuff that's Stuff

ORA tmr, i don't really know what to expect because I have never been to one. Anw I think I shall go for interval training first.

Ever since my injury, my training sessions has been really erratic. Till the extent I feel so empty within me, like there is something not rite. Some people really dread CCA but no matter how much I dread, it has already become part of my life. Don't want to go, still go. In fact, since sec 1 i had this plan to skip 1 training without excuse. Haven't been able to achieve it though. Because I'm addicted to the sense of satisfaction after training. I like the feeling, feels like you are a top achiever.

What I'm afraid now is that it is beginning to take over my studies. I realised that i dont mind giving up a 3.8 gpa for a gold medal. I know it should be the other way round. But it's just this instinct that bugs me.

Just finished my masterlife testimony. I quite glad it is gonna be over. It is a tough commitment. Because you have one extra hmk everyday. Plus they give you assignments to do.

Heats all over

Just so you know, fortunately I qualified for all....THANK GOD.

Injury wise i think im getting better because the pain is gradually fading away. Thanks to dad's super cool tiger balm cum talcuum powder massage everyday! plus icing of course. Thank lord jesus too for helping me through this tough period/crisis.

Now For m timings:
For 3000m: 10.19
1500m: 4.45

I was really pushing very hard during the 1500m race. Though I could have accelerated faster at the last 300m i guess. Was boxed in at the 1st part too. nevertheless, I qualified as the 15/16 qualifier!!! Wilbert super pro. he qualified as 1st. With a timing of 4.35. LOLz!

Ben

Die Lar

oh no oh no oh no oh no....God Please Help Me...

My knee doesn't seem to be any better. All im thinking of is the race. I just wanna qualify. But it seems quite difficult for me to do it. Plus I have a 1500m race this wed, makes every thing even worse. English expository on Wednesday, Undone homework due tmr, knee cap painful. Can life get any suckier mans

Praying really hard....

Ben =(((

My Only Last Hope

This is my final and only hope.

Ice. Ice and more Ice. Yea im doing drugs. I'm a delinquent

If my knee doesn't feel well by sunday. God give me strength to qualify for finals. Really. really. r.r.r.rr.r.r.r.r.r. hope it heals sia.

Stressed and Burned Out

Really really really stressed and Burned...

My life is very screwed up right now. I wish i could like just turn back time and set a whole new route. My life could have changed...

Firstly, I have a physics test and an English exposition thing tomorrow. Which I feel really unprepared for. I studied 1 hour of physics and i'm still very confused. Science is full of stupid contradictions. Screw it lah

Secondly, My knee....I have nothing to say. But cry. WTH WAD THE SHIT IS WRONG WITH IT. I tried all kinds of remedies and stretched. The stubborn pain just refuses to go away..sighhhhh. Furthermore, track nats is in 5 day. 3000m heats. I feel nervous yet unprepared. Thats the worst feeling you should have for a race. At least if you noe that you are in top form, but just nervous, thats fine. Now it's NO confidence and nervous. Such a feeling it's a torture to the human mind.

Thirdly, 3D interclass deco gone case. The grading is next week rite? I think so. All we have is a few sheet of paper, scribble on some words, and paste. No sign of class decoration/ class effort. Tried getting people to print. And I'm not a designer person, I can't seem to think of any shit.

Fourthly, I have ALOT of things to do for RE and little time left. Some more tomorrow I will only come back at around 8. Plus need to do tuition homework. Wa lao How ?

Fifthly, i just watched some video's on animal cruelty, and i don't feel good. Poor animals. Srsly, it's like damn sad when you watch the videos. SO heart-breaking. just imagine you feel the pain toooooo.....Ouch.

Thinking of any inspiring quotes too cheer myself up. But constantly failing. Cos I think of Nats I feel damn stressed. Track scares me. But i have to face it.

The Emo and Frustrated,
Ben =(

EMO and Happy

i feel emo now.....
Cos I dunno wad's wrong with my knee. Could It be ITB? Could it be A muscle strain? I really hope that it's some pain that goes off within few days. Yah if not for this Sat 3000m may not make it. Sigh...

Aiyah anyway, this is part and parcel of a runner life. Gotta accept it, sometimes you body is just plainly stubborn and then we have to give up an important event or trainings. So nvm, I will try my best to stay positive and hope for the best mans!!!

Another thing to be sad about: MY MALAY CCT IS TMR
I'm don't have that "Xiong You Cheng Zu" feeling (it's okay if you dun understand =D ). Cos I don't have that spark of interest for malay anymore, srsly I did it because my mum says i should have some challenges in my life lol. Haiz...so when i study i just feel like tearing the book apart and flush it down the toilet.

Really feel like quitting. But I found out that success comes with perseverance and patience. Yes but how can I persevere in something i don't enjoy doing. Yah, but I my decision was to go with malay so I'll stick with it. YEAH...
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On a happier note,
I finally have confidence in my RE project liaoz!! YES! We decided that we shouldn't give tuition if we are focusing on children.

Why?

Think like a primary school kid. Has Tuition ever..ever..ever...appealed to you. In fact, when the tuition teachers rings the doorbell, i bet you cursed and swear. Don't Lie! Cos I did it too....

Haha we are planning a sports programme for the children at the hougang student care service. Apparent their schedule and ours fits quite perfectly. Ms Yang is SUPER friendly and approachable and she was FOR our proposal to conduct a sports programme!!! SO YEAH. We have found out match baby.....

Sigh got interval training tomorrow. Then got malay cct b4 that. Somemore tomorrow lessons are as boring as boredom!!!! Wah lao....

Ben

HUNGRY

I just finished my chicken rice and i still feel very v.v.v. hungry. hmmmm i feel like eating my school hokkien mee right now. Oh no, my stomach just growled. I dun mind eating a pao or smth. But my house doesn't have much food. Oh shit that means i have to suffer until 7 like this =(

Lols. Im listening to old songs now. Not that old lah...maybe the kind of my father's age. Not bad actually. Emo people should listen to these songs, makes them feel that there is smth to live for. Tears in heaven. My favorite =)

Finish

Ah...i guess it's mixed feeling. Sadness and Happiness

At first i felt quite glad. Since getting indiv 5th was quite a nearly impossible and unbelievable thing, especially in the B div (it meant another round of CoLoUrS yay). Sigh, but then when i heard the team result. Wah it was almost like droppng off a cliff. Spirits were all low. No one talked. Atmosphere was very fear. And i think mr lim was damn pissed with us.

At least we managed to get a team medal. (4th placing btw)

But i guess Life there's ups and down. Sometimes we just need a lift of friendship to bring the downside up. Yea.

I guess we could have done much much better than this. In fact, I had kind of high expectations for the C div. Since they consist of mostly DSA dudes. I think they all did their best.But maybe it just wasn't their day. And hopefully next year they would pick up the pace again.

Sine Finibus. No Limits. We gotta work even harder.

Good Job Guys. If you have tried your best, thats all we need.
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AHAH. I PASSED MY SS ESSAY. 10/15

Screw BEN TAN. he told me i got 2/15. shit i was quite sad. I expected to fail but not so badly. Then i passed me the paper. I murdered him.
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Nationals over. It's time to get back to my studies. WHICH I HAVE OBVIOUSLY NEGLECTED>>>>APPARENT FROM THE RESULTS I GOT.
Nah but it was worth it.

I think i shall post my race reflections next time.

Ben

SCGS Dance Concert

Superb.

Its like watching a troupe of professionals dancing. A piece of art. Seriously. It was extremely well-planned! The choreographers are like creative genius(s?). Anyway i think i really take my hat off to them. Some more can see the dancers are like putting their utmost efforts into making their concert a success.

Lols it was the first time i actually saw my sis take center-stage. I can't believe i'm saying this but she's freaking PRO. Da jie was like "WAH er jie so PROOO...omg she's taking center stage!" Then she hyperventilated. And my mum went on and on complimenting her. But she deserves it. After training for wad 10 years? Mostly ballad lah. Some tap-dance here and there. She danced like over 6 dances, unlike the previous years where she only danced 1 or 2. All in all, i can say that i'm quite proud of her. =)

And their finale i think it's called "eurhythmy" was very high. Best of all the finales i have watched. If im not wrong, there was 110 dancer/teachers out there thumping all sorts of drums. And their rhythm made the atmosphere. Very exciting and high.

And it ended with a mighty thunderous applaus. The kind where your ear-drums can explode. =).

No pictures cos I couldn't be bothered to carry the camera with me.

Ben

1 more week

AHHHHHHHHH
1 more week..just 1 more week...to CROSS NATS
oh the fear..it's gripping me..so hard i can hardly breathe

Nvm I have to learn to control my anxiety. Don't think about the race and get my mind busy with other better things to do. LIKE GOING ON MSN and spamming convos...thats may well work you know! Sadly, no classes are gonna be there to support us. Except the track team of course and Slim said kenneth kwok might be there as well.

Sian...i have this feeling as if i want it to finish yet I dont want it to come. But yet, if it doesnt come, how can it finish. So it has to come, so i cant make it not come. sigh sigh sigh. I oso feeling kinda excited about the run. But how can i be? Human nature is really weird. Maybe i become a bird. Then i can fly!! And sneak up on people hanky pankying. oo..that would be quite cool.

Oh. And i exposed my skin to a hell lot of UV rays today. Which is bad. It may cause skin cancer. Because it was playing bastketball with a retard (joel ng) under the sweltering heat. Lols I can't do a freaking lay-smth. (layup or layout?) I DONT EVEN NOE THE CORRECT NAME. Nvm i learn it when i'm more free. My DNA has been damaged/altered. Lets hope its not that bad...

Oh this is my good friend Cheng lu. We kinda caught him in the "act". Something he didn't want anyone to see.

Happened after Training. I oso dunno why. The whole cross team was obsessed over a vending machine

This is derek. I have many things to say. but i cant. HAHA he was trying to smile for the cam but apparently this really pretty girl walked past

There again crazy for over vending. the coins were stuck or smth.

HAHA
Ben

One more day till 1 WEEK of holday officially starts

And there must be planning of goals to achieve this march holidays:

Firstly, I want to grow taller. I want to. I have to. Because height matters in many things. Tall people win most track events. Tall people naturally gain the respect of others. But i know one week may not make a diference. BUT there's always a chance. Haha and i'm putting my faith into that chance.

Secondly, I want to complete all the little projects that I have been neglecting for 2 weeks. Since yesterday, I managed to complete half of my physic project. I feel so proud. I designed a magazine cover which looks super cool. Let me show you.

TADA!!!! cool rite?

BEN L
=)

I have dementia so beware

I think i'm having dementia. Big Time

First I went home yesterday after training. Took my dinner and everything. Feeling so happy. When it struck me. I left my bag in school. If i was in primary school, i think i would been crying for hours. But it was only a bag...with my super important bio file and $60.95 textbook, all too dear to me. haha. so Dad drove me back to school. The embarrassing thing was I was in my old ACS singlet. Shit I went there everyone looked at me. A boy in an ACS shirt with RI pants. In the end, fruitless search. No bag found. I forgot where i placed it. All i got was unfriendly stares by the RJ ruggers. So i came back today to find it. And guess what...

MY EZ LINK CARD WAS ALSO GONE. freak! now two things gone. Okay so i went to library and fortunately, my bag was left untouched. Grabbed it. and went to study. Met Khai Cong and Ryan who were MSNing and Facebooking in library. Apparently they hacked into a teacher's account. Khai Cong refused to show us his pretty girlfriends on facebook. HAHA and Ryan was camwhoring like a girl.

AND SO....i went to buy some noodles for lunch and stood at the bus stop. Waiting, Watching...then I struck me again. I remembered where that elusive card went to....it was still freaking at the school library. I forgot to take it back after i used the stupid project corner. Oh yeah. I ran all the way back to school from J8.

The library was closed. So i took the grey dustbin at the side and threw it at the library glass door. Wow you should have heard the sound. I clicked any switch i could find and rummage through the cards in the room. Once i found my card i ran out. But Librarian SAW ME. and stopped me. Oh the fight we had, kicks and punches flew from all directions. I left unscathed but she was left...with a broken skull. YES i've got the ez link card.

I have triumphed.
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no lah wad i said was rubbish lah. Actually i had to copy 5 lines of this. Something like

"I forgot to take back my card after using the project corner. I have been irresponsible and inadvertently deprived the chance for blah blah blah blah. I must always remember to take my card back etc etc etc"

Stupid student librarian refused to lend me a pen to use. I had to walk to me bag and take it. Sigh.

Ok my story's done

=)
Ben

CEC Invest. Wad Can I Say.

The most spectacular event of the year.

I think it was a good stage show. The stage instrument used were good. Especially the fireworks. Got everyone starstruck. The sleepy woke. The awake fainted. It was all too good. Thanks to Mr Law who made all this expensive things possible. Even the atmosphere was very high and wild. Very tribal and Primitive.

But i still think prefect investiture is better. Because the aura around the prefects is like a commando from the SAF standing in an MRT station. Very authorative. Very powerful. Full of control and charisma. And somemore they are 10 times bigger than us. Maybe not in stature wise but in charactor wise. When the MC said "Presenting the RI prefectorial Board". Whoa. Made me think of the prefects as defenders of our school. The strong shields protecting our school name. All in all, you feel really proud of them.

There you go. The summary of both investiture.

Next Big Thing: Cross Nationals. Omg.

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Oh well Oh well Oh well Oh well Oh well Oh well Oh well

Tick tock, Bong Bong, Bleh bleh

Field work at changi beach. thumbdrive in the computer. Blue sky where birds soar free

There's a staircase leading to the second floor. 1 2 3. Cup filled with water and contaminated with microorganism that can cos the wiping out of mankind kind

haha.

1 raffles institution lane, singapore 575954 tel: 63538830 fax: 63538357.

I love wednesdays because wednesdays are nice.

2 periods of RE: what can get better than this.
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RE is coming along fine. Though there is so much to discuss and so little time =Z

But the homwork load just keeps increasing. Maybe thats how RI maintains their standard, by drilling us with multiple workload and expecting us to cope them.

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Soccer after easy run was a failure today. No place and very few people. I think after nationals, the game would be a whole lot more exciting. LOL Cross Country iconic soccer phrase: GAH!! You have to say it when you kick/pass/dribble the ball. It said that it will give you luck and lots of magic power. It was created by Wizard Wong who practices the highest and most profound level or socery. He's hankerchief can cause a destruction that extend is unknown to mankind. Anger him, you die.

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Kai Yangs's Wise "words"

李凯扬 says:
in the end cnfrm start playing with u
BEN says:
siao
李凯扬 says:
heehee
BEN says:
LOL i dont play with her -.-
李凯扬 says:
on bed
李凯扬 says:
the door is locked
BEN says:
she very ba dao one
李凯扬 says:
the probability of getting xaught
李凯扬 says:
caught
BEN says:
shit man
BEN says:
ur sick
BEN says:
hahahaahha
BEN says:
p5 oso want to do?
李凯扬 says:
why not
李凯扬 says:
not hairy yet
BEN says:
goodness!!!

Good luck to my dear Kai Yang on his journey to hit on my cousin

Mum is into her monthly moods again. Where she will go really depressed, and start becoming very quiet and what's that word? yes..emo

Sigh, it has been like that for 6 years already. For my dad it has been 20 + years. He had to deal with these problems for over a million times. I really really have to admire Dad. No joke. He has this infinite amount of patience that never seems to run out. When my mum scolds/screams at him, he never raise his voice back. In fact, i can't think of a time he has actually shouted at me before.

And the amazing thing is, though he never uses brute force on anybody, many people have tremendous respect for him (Mum told me that). Not through fear, but through compassion. He's the most virtuous man i know. Humble, Gentle, Supportive, Family-oriented, Likes to crack lame jokes. I think every boy should grow to be like him. And i can say, im very lucky to have him as a father.

Ben =)

Oh mans..Cross Nats are coming..round the corner and i'm already beginning to feel the pressure and anxiety setting in.

At first i thought that I didn't have to worry about cross nationals since i was sec 3, I have all the sec 4s to back me up. No sooner did i realised that the team counted on me too. Sigh, well just work hard and make sure i try to secure the top 20. I'm like thinking about cross nationals all the time, i don't want to think about it!! Makes me feel damn emo and nervous. So im trying to find some ways to calm myself down, maybe it will help =).
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Shit, but i failed my bio test. Its like so important and I screwed it up. I think im neglecting my work a bit. I having been slacking to much lately!! So from now till week 10, im gonna chiong my studies and mugging. Start from now.
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Oh and morrison got 3rd for swim carn. I got 6th for fly event and we got last for relay event. IF ONLY MR GERALD SIM DIDN'T PON THE EVENT. heard that gerald, next year if you don't participate, i make sure your life is worse than hell.

K i was jking, thats pure evil.
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Ben

No School. Supposed to be happy. Not Happy.

TOO MUCH HOMEWORK!!!

Oh my gosh, there is so many e-learning stuff to do. Then there's my tuition work. My CCA commitments. Chinese Essay. But i believe I can finish them. Just have to push on. Even if your minds says "eh screw u ben, go to sleep lar", you whack yourself in the head and just continue. Sleeping with peace because you finished your hmk feels better than sleeping with so much worries on the mind.

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My claf still sucks, feels so tight and sore. Like when you bend your knees, then it will hurt. When you start running, the muscles feels like it's gonna break off.

What is happening to morrison???? Or rather what is happening to my batch of morrisonians???

Yesterday, Gerald and douglas pangseh us by not coming for relay, hence shi rui and I was the "last minute hope". And our performance didn't turn out that good. We got last. Happy?

Then today, when i was about to play soccer, Wang Kwan called me. Saying that I have to play for waterpolo because there were people who failed to come. If not for the house and the way wang kwan begged me, haha i would have just poned the thing.

Haha!!! you should have watched me play, its like a nerd trying to do hip-hop, utterly embarrassing. All the competitors were either swimmers/ poloers. I was the only non swimmer. I was like a monkey and they were huge monstrous gorillas (no offense to swimmers =P). They swim so aggressively, i didn't know you can push and grab opponent's when they have the ball. Once, they was this weird guy who held on to my hand under the water, the ball like 30 metres away, and he just held my hand. Maybe thats the way they play, as an outsider i guess it was a very strange game.

Oh and in polo they can file a million times and nobody cares. Filing is part of the nature of polo.

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Now im too sian to even touch my bag. too lazy to touch my pencil. I'm even too lazy scratch my face. Just too lazy to do anything. I'm procrastinating like crazy, im aware of it cos im telling myself now that i will do my homework tomorrow. And I have at least 6 assignments but now, i really don't care. Why?

Cos I'm freaking lazy rite now

Hahas

ben =)

Shit mans! My calf feels freaking pain. I have no idea why, but it hurts when i run.

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Me and Ben tan have been getting on quite well lately. We have become super good and INTIMATE buddies and we have made a deal to make certain stuff utmost private and confidential. haha but our conversation very lame one, lame until also no one wants to hear, so don't bother asking

Played soccer again after training. It's like a part of our easy run training already. Haha I dont think our past seniors have been doing this. But who cares, its fun and it also trains stamina and ball sense. Makes you have good hand eye coordination.

haha and its enjoyable cos we have special people playing. Like Wizard wong (Nathaniel Wong) who likes saying "GAH" when he sees the ball, and then randomly ram the ball away, be it to own goal or opposite. Then there's the cute reuben s/o devaprasad (I srsly love his name), who gets freaking high from see a high ball coming to him, then he starts his cute screaming. He adicted to runescape btw. To him. Runescape precedes all else.

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Oh and our swim carn is screwed. My batch especially!! wth man. I call them to participated, they say ok, on that day, no one's there. Except for a few loyal individuals namely, btan, Mk, douglas and some others. Gerald sim PON ALLL. wad the shit lah. He is like known in our batch for his swimming and he pon everything i sign him up for.

Morrison low chance of getting 1st for swim carn
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New memory verse for masterlife : "This is to my father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciple" (John 15:8)

Ben

Lee Zi Yang

haha I think Zi yang is damn cool.

I can talk to him about anything under the sun. And the answers that he gives are matured and accurate. But he love to bullshit too. He and Yiyan are best friends so they learn from each other.

We call him "da shi" because he is like the master of certain stuff. He is the enlightened one. haha. And we are all his loyal disciples, learning The Way of Stuff from him. A lame society but a very funny one.

Then one day YiYan faced a huge crisis in his life. Ziyang decided that being his good friend, he could not watch YY suffer in silence. Hence, he called for me to help YiYan. Resulting in another group formed. I dont even know the name of the group. I dont think there is even any. But our conversation often ends up not helping yiyan but instead helping ourself. But at least we did tried once to do smth about YY but the plan screwed up and I got blasted. Who cares, At least I tried =)

If you wanna enter this very pretigious, respectable, admirable "group". You have gotta know the password. Only there are only three members and password is scretly bounded betwen us.

Ok. This is stupid haahahahahhaaaahah

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New memory verse for masterlife:

"A new command I give u: Love one another. As i have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another" (John 13: 34-35)

I'll be loving you guys =)

Busy Week

Damn its a gonna be a busy week!

Three Test and 1 race. At least there is easy run to enjoy

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Ran at bedok reservoir yesterday. It was something we nvr expected

A 12 km long run at bedok reservoir!! 4km fast run is bad enough already..now we have to run 12 km. The bad thing about this places is that you can see how much longer you have to run.

A standard race feeling
The feeling is like you are so damn tired already. You tilt your head estimate the amount of distance left. Then you look to your front, realizing you are still far away from the finishing line. And you can't stop to take a breather because people will overtake you. so you hope that It will finish soon, but the nearer you go, the farther it seems. And it seems like eternity before you can see the finishing line. But you push on.

Perseverance.

Your lungs are bursting for air. Your leg muscle pulls tight as if screaming for you to stop and walk. But you know that if you stop, there goes your medal and position. So you push on. Praying to God to give you strength. When you reach around 800 metres away from the finishing, your legs feel extreme fatigue. So you rely on mental strength to keep your body
going, your minds forces the legs to go at a rhythmic pace.

Your faces turns red, you are gasping for oxygen, you are beginning to slow down. and you hear foot steps behind you. Just 150m more, Cmon! Push On!! you tell yourself. You quicken your footsteps, the finishing line comes to sight! Suddenly, you feel the adrenaline rush and you feel that last spurt of strength. Exploding into a fast sprint, you race to the line,

10..9..8..7..6...5....4..3...2...1

you bow my head, you feel giddy. But you at least you know...

You've done it.

Ben Tan is a coward.

When he sees me, he runs away. for no apparent reason... He like half a head taller than me and yet, he's scared of me. People like Brandon Tan and Aaron Yoong, have been immune to my threats and scares.

What happened b4 that i shall not say. I don't wish to affect his valuable reputation.

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Today during physics lesson, we were at the com lab. Unit 3 is quite boring. Fortunately i sat behind with Ben Tan and Joshua. We were entertaining ourselves with Google Maps. Showing Each other where we stay and everything.

Then, smth happened, smth extremely unpredictable happened, so random yet so funny. I received an sms. It read:

"Ben I feel like having sex with u now. Kiss my Dick Pls"

Nice.

haha..the three of us spent the rest of the lesson laughing like siao. Regarding the sender, the 2C 'o8 boys should be able to guess who it is. Who else would send this kind of horny message? Even before I actually checked the sender, I already knew who it was.

CNY

So far CNY has been quite...how should i put it...mundane

Its true. Other than the HongBaos that I collect. Becos you have to go everywhere to visit people and we do this every year. I guess its part of the chinese tradition so we have to follow it. We can't be considered full-fledged chinese if we don't practice the traditions.

But at least there's lots and lots of money trade involved. It a joy for me now. But a burden when I grow up.
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People say that i have changed since sec 1. Derek says that i was so innocent and guai when i was sec 1.

I tell you now..that that's rubbish. Srsly, I was already quite "polluted" ever since I came to p 6. Just that in sec 1 was was a newbie, so it was natural that i was quite shy and soft-spoken. Furthermore being an ex-ACS boy, how can i be innocent?

Every boy who comes out from any ACS school has been corrupted to a certain extent. My was just above average =). It just depends whether he wants to say it or not.

Oh right, in addition to that, I was from 1C. Which was deemed as the naughtiest, noisest and most "bubbly" class in the sec 1 batch. It was due to that Kyap didn't accept any prefect nominees from our class lah.

So in actual fact, I hadn't changed at all.

Same past, Same present, Same future =)

Ben

RE matters settled

YES! Finally re matters are settled, all we need is to wait for our mentors now

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haha. Soccer today was damn fun. But only seven ppl from 3D played. Joshua damn funny sia, ram here, ram there, no control and no aiming of the ball. The ball goes far but 70 metres away from the goal!! Then, comes aaron, he's one bold creature. Played with full uniform on, long pants and everything. He oso is joshua partner. Ram here, ram there, playing as if its rugby.

but i think my goal keeping skills have improved leh. Now I can save a flying ball!! I used to be so scared of a fast ball. But then ah, I dive and save the ball...the ball still go through. Must train harder.

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Long run tomorrow. Gonna watch ghost whisperer later =)

see ya

Life's Just unfair

Its just unbelievable. 2 RI dudes passed away within just a short span of 1 week?!
What's scarier is, both r from the "k" class.

I feel really sad for their families...especially Yuan Chi's family.

They just died like so suddenly, no one expected it. The sad part is one day you see them happy-happy, the next moment they are gone forever. I imagine how devastated their families must be--to lose your own child, its like losing a part of your life. Furthermore, both are only so young and they have a bright future in front of them. Now it has vanished, no more..

Life is one very delicate string, we either take care and hold on to it or we just let it go. Cherish your lives, you may never noe when God calls for you.

What to do for re?????????????????

OMG. Super dilemma. At first my group (cheng lu, joel ng, joel chin, me) wanted to go for service-learnng. But the talk they gave today..introduced us to somany more new and more exciting choice...ahhhh..I really no idea wad to choose. Stick to S-L? Chin wants to try the Art Re...Many Ppl are doing S-L so if we venture into a different project then its good. But the problem is: we have such vague knowledge doing the other "unique" ones!!!

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My MSP Class and Training are screwed..

Malay Class happens to be on every thurdays from 2.15 - 5.15 (3 hours)
Training, on the other hand, is also every thursday from 3.30-5.30..

Wad to do?

I have no freaking idea.

I guess i have to tok to the teacher..worst come to worst I have to drop it..but Mum won't be very happy.

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Race on Saturday and the anxiety and beginning to set in.

Its at bedok Reservoir: I don't like that place cos it murders the mental strength (worse than Pandan)...5+km

Guan Lin says its possible to win..but I have slight doubts cos its me against the sec 4s who are so strong...

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Anyway, im beginning to like my class. cos there are a whole lot of funny ppl over there. There's leonard, joshua, brandon(ultra retarded), zheng yi and mingshi (who brandon alaways gays with....at least they are quite friendly...

At least this is an escape from stress and stuff..

for 3D teacher wise its not bad, we dont have those really strict teachers who love following the rules(like Mrs Lim Er Min)...we have a variety of teachers from gay to weird speaking to weird actions (like nodding ther heads)

well, thats all

ben

1st Official Day at School

I know the first day was technically on Monday...but last week there was the OBS course(which i failed to go)..so we didnt actually get to know one another...

Rite, my hope for this 2009 in a new class, new students, new year.

1) Hope I can get along well with frens..though i know most of them alr..
2) Good and Consistent Grades (3.6<)
3) Injury free (must..until track nationals is done)
4) A more active christian
5) A medal from Nats Cross
6) Make good repoirs with teachers (Thats helps!! believe me...)
7) More proactive
8) A good fren, classmate, son, student
9) Laugh and Smile More
10) Resist temptations (all Kinds from food...to Peer pressure)
11) More leadership roles

Haha..thats about it

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Oh Yah..I was introduced to this game by 4 Juniors...Its

ZANY BRIDGE!!!

at www.viwawa.com

Super fun...should try..its quite addictive

Its not considered a temptation..haha

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Ben

I feel so mean today.

First I was at the Library reading the papers, then i saw daryl(i think thats how you spell it). He was my swimmer for the aquathlon challenge this year. He saw me and was waiting to for me to say hi..you noe that look...but omg..I DIDN'T!!! wad the hell, cos at that moment i forgot who he was...i guess he just turned away dejectedly...

Second time. I was walking towards the toilet. then i saw jordaan...wa lao..at that moment i turn away again..i look damn dao i think..as if im avoiding him..I DIDN'T acknowledge his presence lah...

haiz...what a mean day

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I want to join Interact Club i think its so much fun...I emailed the teacher...hope she replies soon. It seems very interesting.

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No OBS

Oh man. If my hand was fine, i would be packing and being so excited for obs...

I imagine the next 5 days, how much fun they would be having while i will be in school stoning.. this feeling suks....

Sad. Damn Sad.

Bad News. Bad Day. I can't go for OBS!!!!!

its the feeling when you want something badly then its stripped away from you completely. If only i hadn't fall, things would have been so much different. But since it happened, I should well just forget about it.

OK but at least it would be a good time i can train harder to be back on form.

well a lesson learnt, I'll just move on.

ben