SOOO LONG

HOLY CRAP

it's been months since I last posted..

So many things have been happening. I failed to record them =(

Life's is taking me for a ride now.
Currently going down
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So much work to do!
- Showcase portfolio
- Oral defense
- Chinese Oral
- ZTZY
- Philo COI Preparation

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Drama feste is tmr!
Good luck to all who have worked sooo hard =D

华语！

为了提高我的华文程度，从今天开始我会使用华语来写博客!

别笑我！=D

June Hols.

CHINESE!

CROSS!

8 PULL UPS / 260 SBJ!

GROW TALLER (practically impossible)!

And all the other random stuff.
like the ultimate fail greenwave

Global Day of Prayer

Praise the Lord God Almighty =D

For he controls everything and he is perfect.

Our incomprehensible, indescrible lord jesus.

I <3 God

End of MYEs

Feels great!

Except for one thing..
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I have set down a few goals I plan to achieve by next semester (hopefully)

1) i'll be bilingual by term =D
2) Operation 8 Pull ups and Operation 260cm SBJ
3) Whack during training..though the training now is super hardcore
4) Morrison! =D
5) Increase my lower body flexibility

GROW TALLER!!

Great,
The work starts NOW

True Friendship

True Friendship comes when the silence between 2 people is comfortable
- Dave Tyson

So true so true!!

Experienced it first hand =D

100th Post

haha I have finally hit my 100th post =D

Never thought I would have managed to sustain this blog for so long.
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Mid years is only 50+ hours away.

Mugging for exams sucks. Especially in an elite school. When everyone seems to have mugged more than you and you suddenly realise how much you have lagged in your revision. Even though you know you are mugging at the fastest rate you can go.

I guess mugging till 2 plus every night is really quite an achievement for me. Usually the latest I sleep (during exams) is like 12. And somehow, mugging at night seems enjoyable. It's extremely quiet and you are virtually free from distractions. That is...if facebook is off. =D
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I miss running.
I dunno why, somehow I just feel like going on the track and start sprinting. I have been consuming so much unhealthy- junk food.

2 ice creams in 1 week. that's a record

Yet another blow

Yes i get it.

I know I failed. and lost. pretty badly in fact.
If you have remarks to make, go ahead.
Really, it doesn't matter to me.

Everything that I feared would happen this year, HAPPENED. Srsly! =O
I might be rock bottom, for now.

But I can't drop any furthur.
The only way is UP.

But how? Feeling lost with no plan really sucks.

D & D

Down & Depressed.

That's pretty much what i have been going through.
I don't know why my post this year seems so emo and sad.
The only thing that keeps me going is my trust in god.

It against the odds.

Nevertheless,
I've to keep going.

Physics

SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.

I feel the PRESSURE and HEAT rising in me

5.30am

Woke up at 5.30am this morning to study my chem;
And I MANAGED to finish it =D

Studying during the wee hours of the morning can be very useful. because there's is absolutely nobody to disturb you and you can really concentrate. The only noise you hear is the rotating of the fan

But the hard part is getting yourself to wake up.

Regrets

If only I wasn't didn't make that choice.

Life is hard. Really hard.
It's an emo year

Studying

I realised since January...

I have never actually studied properly.
I dun remember sitting down with a txtbook/ some notes to study them...That's why now I feel damn stressed when i'm compelled to study for mid-years.

Have to switch on the Mugging-Mode and try to psyche myself.

I LOVE STUDYING
YAY =D

Season's OVER

It's over people.

Track and Cross.
I can't believe. Honestly.
It was only a few weeks ago when we were still burning our muscles during the hardcore interval sessions...and now my secondary school running career is finally over.

Didn't achieve ANYTHING this year. Maybe this year just isn't my year (Although I was really looking forward to performing above expectations this year). Lessons were learnt and experiences that will remain, all in a hard and painful way.

About 40+ weeks before season begins next year.
and 90+ weeks before my retirement season in 2012.

It's hardcore training for another 2 more years.

Let's Go

A Hell lot of stuff to do

So many things at hand now. AND THERE'S NO TIME!!

Studying my maths now, fortunately i'm on my last worksheet.
Anw tmr is Track Finals I'm gonna miss Math TA anw LOLS!! hahaha
Plus Mid Year's are coming. wth...how to cope... =(

Lord, please help me

A Hell lot of stuff to do

So many things at hand now. AND THERE'S NO TIME!!

Studying my maths now, fortunately i'm on my last worksheet.
Anw tmr is Track Finals I'm gonna miss Math TA anw LOLS!! hahaha
Plus Mid Year's are coming. wth...how to cope... =(

Lord, please help me

A step back into the past

Had dinner with dad today...

We were eating in chinatown. And as you know, chinatown holds many memories for most of the chinese in singapore. My dad was one of them...so he start talking about his childhood. And the more he shared with me, the more interested i became!

In fact, what kept most of the conversations going was the immense number of questions I was asking him. Somehow, I just enjoy hear my dad talking about his past experience. I guess every son likes listening to his dad's stories haha. There's just this connection that you can sense.

Oldern times were SO MUCH fun! No homework, no mugging, weekends were solely for soccer, practising kung fu etc =) You only study when exams are coming...and as long as you read alot you can pass with flying colours. When you are primary 6, you start working part-time and learn how to make your own business. There's is no greeenwave project or SS documentary or Summative assessments to handle. Things were so carefree. No Facebook, No Internet, No TV...playgrounds were playgrounds, and not Mousehunt or Mafia Wars.

You learn by making mistakes and NOT by studying history. You can eat as much as you want but you NEVER grow fat!!! 3 Bucks then is equivalent to $10 now...You are easily contented with what you have. Friendship is really simple and totally honest. 1 spike shoe is easily shared by 10 people. You don't get booked for play soccer IN YOUR UNIFORM!

After dinner, I went back to the place when I used to pratise wushu...I havent been there for 2 years! Somehow memories all came back, the people you used to see aren't there anymore. And you miss the days you take your sword and start chasing each other and acted like you were the hero of a Kungfu Movie.

Then i saw some kids training (My cousin and some others). They were learning the same "tao" I learnt years ago. And as I watched them do it, I could actually imagine myself being in their position. The pain I suffered, the pants I split, the aches I felt on the following morning...

There was this spear I used to train with, I SAW IT THERE! When I held it, wow...seriously the feeling is extraordinary...the scratches that I made on the spear 2 years ago remained intact...the cloth remained unchanged. The same smelly, moist cloth I felt 2 years ago!

NOSTALGIA

STEEPLE!

My VERY first time!

Brief idea of wad happened:
there were 26 competitors and everyone chiong at the first 300m...I started at around 20th..
THEN the mistake came. I FELL at the WATER JUMP. I got soaked from head to toe. But no choice, must continue. Then the second round. the mistake repeated. I FELL at the WATER JUMP. HAHA....3rd round went very well. Managed to hunt down a few strong runners.

Now for my 3k..
Not easy but Possible

Happy...and Worried

Damn. I actually thought that Sec 4 was gonna be REALLY REALLY FUN man.

I mean Handling so much shit sometimes makes you forget what you are trying to achieve actually. I want to achieve SO MUCH but I have NO IDEA how the hell I gonna achieve them.

So Far Everything is been screwing up: I let my whole team down during cross nats...Morrison is the laggiest house currently - I think so (How does eugene phua do it?!?!)...Fortunately my studies hasn't been dropping so much.

But have you ever been through the position such that YOU REALLY WANT TO HAVE FUN...but when you start thinking about all your commitments and how much life has been screwing you up...you just lose it and emo for the rest of the day.

Read WEI HAN'S Post and I REALLY FEEL THE same way...I hate to be forgotten. I came into RI wanting to leave an impact in the school, something others would look to as an example. This whole year I been trying so damn hard to juggle all the responsibilities and it's extremely difficult to focus on ONE commitment and leave an impression BECAUSE YOU HAVE OTHER STUFF that comes your way. DAMNNNNNN

And when all else starts to fail, you try fall back on your academia, that's when u realise....Your studies also dropping. And you begin to think u are an ultimate failure. HAHAA

But then, something happens, and you bounce back almost immediately

Disappointment drives you to do better

Yes. Many of you knew what had happened to the RI X-Country B-Div Team.

Many say it's not my fault. But haha srsly just think straight. If I had gotten into the top 10, the results would have been drastically differeny. But i didn't, instead I drag everybody else down to 5th.

Anyway forget about that.
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I think i should join XC in JC. I mean I wouldn't want my stamina, which I have developed after 3+ years of hardcore training, to go to waste. And I want to leave school knowing that I was good at something and I pursues it all the way to the end. If you start something, carry it through to the end.

I used to have this deep-seated mindset that Cross Sucks. Joining cross had never crossed my mind in JC. In fact I had never pictured my JC life with X-Country inside. I always looked forward to my last track event in Sec 4 because then it's OVER. It seems quite surreal but I think I am going to join cross in JC. Unknowingly, I think Cross has just become part of my lifestyle. Seems pretty weird. How motivation can change mindsets.

Even I can't believe myself.

Focusing on Track Nats now. All the best RI Track & Cross

I Mugged Chinese =)

I spent 1 1/2 hours MUGGING CHINESE TODAY =)

So proud of myself.

I think i should do this everyday. By the time Os come I'll be in tip-top condition. SO THAT I CAN GET MY A1!!!!

But i wasted the rest of the day slacking and surfing the net. hahaha

Season's in a week

Here comes the time when you look at the title and u wonder "what the hell should I write"

Anw, what is going through my head almost every second now is SEASON!!!
I think it might be my last year in RI XC (maybe..) so I really want to make this year a highly memorable one...

I was scanning through facebook looking through photos of the RIXC in the past...when we were toddlers in sec 1 and 2.

felt quite inspired because the team was extremely bonded and they left a lasting legacy (in which Mr Lim always uses as a GOOD EXAMPLE)...So I really really pray that we will do VERY VERY well this year and hopefully be like our seniors who have long gone and vanished =)

The Big day is in 7 days time. Now everything in my life revolves around that particular day.

But beneath all the anxiety, there's a calm and soothing sensation.
Not sure why

Ben =)

Season's here

Here comes yet another round of X-C Season.

Bringing along the same old doubts, stress and pressure...

Mixed feelings about this year. Really hope i can do well, since this year might be my last year in this arena. Anyway, 4 more months and SEASON'S OVER! Really looking forward to the point of time. Less worries and less restraints. haha

C'mon ben. Keep Chionging for 4 more months...it's like a cross country race of it's own.

A New Year

Havent posted recently, probably it's because I started keeping a personal diary. Well, I wouldn't want to write my recounts in 2 places right..

Happy New Year!!

I can't believe it..wow I'm actually sec 4 alr. or at least I will be in 2 days time. Come to think of it, I changed quite a lot since sec 1. Both physically, emotionally and psychologically.

But somehow I dun feel as excited as i should be for the new year. Now I'm like dreading to go to school, to go for training, to even do anything. Dunno why, it just suddenly overwhelmed me.